Break

I need a break. A major one. Life can just drag you into its midst and its so easy to let go and forget where your priorities lie. I’m scared of after I’m done with the Qurán course, it’ll be so hard to keep up revision to keep the knowledge within you. I’m already missing it and i feel these holidays are a trial for me. My khushoo in Salah is different from how it used to be when I was getting daily doses of the Qurán.

Anyway coming back to the break, I just feel like taking out all the plugs. Solitude. Seclusion. I need time for myself and I’m so tempted to do that. But I just can’t, not when I have people depending on me to give them advice and others that turn to  me when they have a problem, religious or otherwise. For the past month or so, I’ve barely been at home, its either this or that and I had to end up going out. According to some people, I’ve gone to being totally anti-social to being too social. Heh. Khayr, as long as its not like Im going out to party or anything, but for genunine reasons.

I’m still going to try and cut my online time to make space for some ‘ME’ time. Especially in regards to revising the Qurán, working out and teaching some family members.

The month of Shabaan is here and it is sunnah to fast the first half of the month and it holds immense reward. Don’t get the oppurtunity pass you by!

Usaamah ibn Zayd said: “I said, ‘O Messenger of Allaah, I do not see you fasting in any month more than in Sha’baan.’ He said, ‘That is a month concerning which many people are heedless, between Rajab and Ramadaan. It is the month is which people’s deeds are taken up to the Lord of the Worlds, and I would like my deeds to be taken up whilst I am fasting.’ [Saheeh al-Nasaa’i, 2221 & Abu Dawud]

May Allah allow us to enter into Ramadan and accept our fasts and deeds. Ameen!

PS – My second day of working out and although I’m excessively tired because my body is in a state of shock, I am happy alhamdulilah. I am so utterly out of stamina. I hope I can keep up the routine.

PPS – There were so many other things I wanted to blog out, like the stupidity of some [*SOME*] Men, marriage phobias, 10 year old curious children, supposed trips to Pakistan, and uhm yeah. But I dont have the energy.

”How can I smile? How can I smile or eat or drink and food taste good to me when Bait Al-Maqdis is in the hands of the crusaders?” Salahadeen Al Ayyubi (rahmat-Allah `alayh)

:/

I hate life sometimes. Like now, for example.

:/

You know what they say about patience being hard? They were right.

Ugh!!!

Stupidity 101

Life is interesting to say the least. We go through ups and downs. Then we go through phases of our lives which are hectic and fast and then we go through phases which are slow and boring. Through out them all we complain.

So apparently Niqaabis are facing a lot of opposition these days. Especially in places like France. I can never understand what peoples problem is with the face-veil. Live and let live. As long as no one is forcing you to cover your face, leave those who do alone. And please, don’t speak or think for them because you can never be in their place unless you adopt and feel what they do.

I know its going to be hard, but inshaAllah this Ramadan, I’m hoping I have the guts and strength to start doing Niqaab even infront of my cousins/brother-in-law. So far, I was on a ‘relative Munaqabah’ – ie – I didn’t cover my face infront of my relatives [Male]. But like they say, everything needs to be done steadily and I feel now is the right time. I’m hoping I have the strength to keep steadfast on this, especially when I visit Pakiland because Aunties would probably eat me up alive.

I honestly think I might have a serious marriage phobia. My friend, [who likes to try her hand at matchmaking quiet often, sigh] mentioned this guy I should consider because hes practicing, is actually more than okay about the Niqaab and might be someone I just maybe compatible with.

And I gave him an outright rejection without even asking anything about him.

Why? I honestly don’t know. When marriage is brought up in reference to me it just. makes. me. suffocate.

Oh besides, I still have genuine reasons… I need to finish my University education first. And I’m still a baby at heart. Ta Da! So there…

[God forbid my Parents find out all the people I've been rejecting and make sure they never meet ].

And secondly, I’m really upset myself for running TWO blogs, not updating both and not having written anything worthwhile in quiet sometime.

Life iz de stupidz sometimez.

Smart Husband

Men take notes…

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=126601375420&ref=mf

[I'm hoping people are able to access this, couldnt find the video on youtube].

Red & Nails

Is red nailpolish too outrageous…?

Actually, lets phrase it this way,

‘Is Red nailpolish too outrageous for a Niqaabi?’

*sheepish*

I’ll probably be taking it off anyway before I go out, I don’t know why I get these urges sometimes.

[My only other option would be to wear gloves...]

Del

I have this indefinable urge to delete this blog.

And I haven’t replied to peoples comments… because I don’t want to. I’m lazy.  And I’m busy.

Sigh.

A Womans heart

I love this quote. And I think every Woman out there should implement it.

“A woman’s heart should be so hidden in God that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.”

[Author unknown]

Gah

I’m not going to panic because there is no point in doing so. I’m drowning, yet again in a mountain of work that I need to work though. See what happens when I procrastinate and leave things till the last minute?

I have to:

• Listen to the Tafseer of Surah Maryam Verses 1 – 4o because I skipped class today and the tafseer is for 2 and something hours. Then I need to study the Arabic of the verses. This is due tomorrow.
• I have to finish two Fehm Al Quran Papers for tomorrow.
• I need to revise Arabic Grammar and this is something I don’t like – Arabic Grammar is. hard.
• I have a hadith test tomorrow and I haven’t touched my books.
• Need to review my memorisation of Surah Kahf first 15 verses for thursday. [Only thing I don't have a problem with as such!]
• And on top, I need to be present for the fundraising event happening tomorrow for Swat.
• I’m not getting time to work-out in all this and im so out of stamina. I volunteered somehwhere one day and we had to pack boxes, when I got home I didn’t have the energy to do anything. I just slept. The next morning, my whole body felt like a truck had driven over it. I don’t think i’ve ever felt so unfit in my life. :S I miss the gym days…

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

My Cat went and fought again and has a wound which has puss in it on his cheek. Need to go to the Vet, but the dear vet doesnt sit until 5pm!

Oh and, I SO dont need some of the ‘added complications’ in my life.

Oh and I can’t believe I didnt mention I don’t have my own Car. So I have to depend on the ‘house’ car when its free! I hate this. Sniff. Hopefully my Dad will get a new car, and Ill have the Camry to myself. Will make things so much easier.

And I don’t understand why some people think that just because I’m studying the Qurán for a year and a half I won’t complete my University education!!! :S

A Victory for Pakistan

Congratulations Pakistan for winning the t20 Cricket WorldCup and doing a good job. Especially happy for Afridi, his performance was excellent.

I’m also happy because this victory will bring much needed happiness to the people who are IDPs and the current turmoil the Country is in.